Superior? Ranking?
You know, relationships, right, is all about the back and forth communication, learning from each other and all that. But in my head, I know this is unhealthy, I have this... how do I call it... concept? that a lot of them are kind of superior over me? Like they rank higher than me? You know when you first meet someone and kinda wanna become friends with them, and when you do eventually become friends with them, you (well, I) feel like I don't deserve to be friends with them sometimes? I think like that sometimes, even though our interactions are completely normal. It feels like I'm a worker who the boss noticed. It feels like they're of a higher rank, and they noticed me. I feel anxious about always being the one to initiate the interaction- or, to put this in simpler words, it's like I'm always the one who texts first. (But like in a more complicated way, not just texting.) So yea. I don't know. Sparky x Ps. this is my 99th post on here, I'll have to think...