Sparky Blogs

Updateeee!!!! I haven't been here for a looong long time. And I'm pretty sure that's kind of a good thing(?). This means that I'm not s t r e s s e d as heck or like I'm not just randomly sad for no reason. These days, I tend to only get sad or angry when something happens. Brooklyn said I've changed for the better, by acting who I actually am (instead of trying to impress people, I guess:)) And I'm very very happy to hear that!!!! Honestly, online school has helped a lot lot. Although we still have to socialise physically when we leave school and stuff for business purposes , at least I have a bunch of coping methods ready:) Oh, one more thing, I've discovered that I can recover much more quickly than I use to. Even though I can get really really REALLY emotional in a couple of seconds, it usually (well, these days at least) takes a short period of time for me to calm down and convince myself that it will be ok:D Anyways, self care. Yes, I'm talking...

a little tw// Hey! Haven't talked in a month and a bit:) Coming back with a semi-heavy topic. (It's not that heavy actually) So, throughout the past year I reckon, I sometimes imagine these... weird scenarios. Like I would imagine something I would never ever ever do. Here's a very random example, but when I was on a bus with my friends, I imagined if I just stood up and got off the bus before our stop without saying anything, what would happen and how people around me would react. Or like if I randomly walked up to someone and talked to them how would they react. You know what I mean? They aren't necessary good things sometimes. (tw// like I've imagined if I jumped off a building what would happen. I'd think about how it would feel like. But, of course, I'd never actually do that.) I imagine things that would never ever ever happen. I don't necessarily like to imagine these things, it just... happens. For some reason. Sparky x