Sparky Blogs

Nobody's perfect. It's true, isn't it? It's impossible to be perfect. Everyone makes mistakes. Why can't I accept that? I'm terrified of making mistakes. I force myself to be good at everything. Of course, it's not possible at all, so I end up beating myself up for it. I'd blame myself for making mistakes. I try to not make it as big of a deal as I think it is in front of people, but the more I try to make it sound casual, the more people may think I'm not treating things seriously. Well, I guess it's part of my personality. I'd love to try and embrace it, accept that human makes mistakes, but I don't know how. Sparky x

I sometimes feel like I'm an outsider, especially these few weeks. I've always been that person who doesn't have a particular squad. I have best friends, but I don't fit in in their group of friends. At first, I thought it was a good thing. I'd have friends in a few different groups, that's good right? Wrong. I just want have a group of friends I can go out with often. Of course, it's not possible. They have other friends as well, they have their main squad. I'm only in their second squad, like a backup plan. So when everyone went to their own group of friends, I don't have anywhere to go. I'd just have lunch by myself, with a book. I feel like an outsider. The popular ones have their popular squad, nerdy ones have their nerdy study club. But me? I'm nobody. Sparky x