Outsider

I sometimes feel like I'm an outsider, especially these few weeks. I've always been that person who doesn't have a particular squad. I have best friends, but I don't fit in in their group of friends. At first, I thought it was a good thing. I'd have friends in a few different groups, that's good right? Wrong.

I just want have a group of friends I can go out with often. Of course, it's not possible. They have other friends as well, they have their main squad. I'm only in their second squad, like a backup plan. So when everyone went to their own group of friends, I don't have anywhere to go. I'd just have lunch by myself, with a book.

I feel like an outsider. The popular ones have their popular squad, nerdy ones have their nerdy study club. But me? I'm nobody.

Sparky x

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