Artificial feelings

Artificial feelings, it's like a fake emotion. It's your mind telling you what to feel instead of how you really feel. I remember when my best friend was always better than me. I was jealous, but I know I shouldn't. I know I should feel happy for her. I do feel happy for her... do I? Or is that only what I want myself to feel. It adds a lot of pressure to me as a person with emotions to be controlled, even if it's by my own self. You know you shouldn't feel certain emotions but you can't help it, can you. It's natural for us to feel jealous. It's part of a human being. Emotions. I can't seem to accept myself to feel that way, when I know I shouldn't. Is it possible to change my emotions? I'm not sure.

Sparky x

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