September 10, 2018

Today, I woke up terrified. I had the worst dream ever. In my dream, my mother told me she actually doesn't love me and uses me to earn money. I was crying the whole time and I felt like I didn't sleep at all. I noticed (my therapist pointed out) that I'm usually most stressed on Sunday nights, probably because it's Monday after that, which means school. I'm not sure why school makes me stressed, perhaps peer pressure? Sorry I promised to not only speak about my feelings on these daily life posts but here I am rambling on. Anyway, school wasn't too bad today, we met our Physics teacher for the first time. Physics is boring but what can I say, I need to take it this year anyway. I hope the coming few days will be better...

Sparky x

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