December 7, 2018

I just cried. In front of the 'popular squad'. In front of my class teacher. What the heck.

At least Megan wasn't there. Although she'd probably just kinda sit with me for a few minutes and continue to play with her 'popular friends'. 

Wow I sound so bitter. Ugh, what have I become? It's my best friend we're talking about. Why am I so... ugh I hate myself so much.

So basically I just kinda broke and just cried. I'll probably explain everything in the next post but yea. So I cried, then my class teacher saw and came up to me and sat next to me. At first, I was like oh no. But surprisingly, talking to her made me feel better. Not a LOT lot better but a bit better. At least I stopped crying. I'm rambling IM SORRY

At least I'm going to another bffs home <3 I've missed her so much. I'll call her Sky. I haven't seen her for so long:) I'm almost certain this day is going to end a lot better~

Sparky x

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