Lying to myself

Why do lie to myself? Wait. Am I lying to myself? I'm worried about tomorrow. So tonight I danced and sang in my room, which kind of put me into a good mood. Am I just trying to take my mind off it? Force myself to not think about it?

Could this be a good thing? I guess I did have a great time just being my dorky self. But deep down there's this swirl of anxiety to what will happen tomorrow. I can't escape from reality no matter how much I hate it. That's the scariest part.

Sparky x

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