Procrastination

If you haven't noticed, nearly all my posts are written at around midnight or in the early hours. And most of them have been kinda depressy. I've been thinking why.

1. I guess I couldn't sleep properly cause I probably have something on my mind that's preventing me to do so. (which you can easily guess)

2. (THE REASON I'VE FOUND OUT RECENTLY) It's procrastination.

You know when you sleep and time goes by super super fast so you feel like you were asleep for a minute instead of hours? It's as if it's a fast forward button. But when I'm anxious about the next day, I won't want it to come quickly, won't I. So I end up staying up late just to experience this long period of time. It makes me FEEL like there's still time until the disaster comes, although it's all fake. It's basically fake extra time. (I'd be surprised if you understand what I'm trying to say cause of my awful presentation of this)

Anyways, staying up late isn't a good solution to this dreadful feeling. Maybe I could mindful? (I find that scary though for some reason) Welp, I hope I can find a solution to this soon.

Sparky x