Drug

I've been going crazy studying and working hard these few days. It has become a drug to me. It's not like I really really enjoy it, it's actually kind of a way for me to... to um, well, scream?

You know when you get hurt mentally by people? Well I was kinda hurt, but that hurt kind of powered me up. To be honest, it's not like "I HAVE TO PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I CAN STAND BACK UP" sort of thing, it's more like "Ugh, I'm kinda hurt. Imma try to study 9 hours today".

Okay, that was kinda weird, I know they might seem like they're not related at all, but, yea.

So this studying drug isn't stressful at all. It's kind of satisfying actually.

Sparky x

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