2nd June, 2020

Hm... Megan confuses me sometimes. (All the time?) I completely understand we all have our own group of friends, but maybe it'd be better if you tell me before you ditch me?

I mean, you asked if we could sit together in Biology in the beginning of the term, and now you act like I'm not in that class? Lmao. I thought I was being dramatic and too sensitive at first, like I always am. But, I'm pretty sure Paige and Alexis felt it too. (You probably don't remember these names. I myself had to go look in my old blog posts cause I forgot their fake names too. They're friends with Megan. I'm not really close with them but I talk to Paige occasionally.) They probably saw me walk to class alone, sit in class alone, and walk back to my classroom alone last time. I was still spinning around in a circle trying to fidn a seat when half the class already sat down with their little group of friends. Today, they dragged me along when they went up to the lab. Alexis made it kinda obvious lmao. I was walking between them and Paige went in first. I was gonna let Alexis go in after her so they can sit together so Alexis and Paige could sit together, but she insisted I sit between them. (They then started to talk bu I was in the middle. It was kinda awkward so I offered to switch seats with Paige.) Even though it was semi awkward, I'm lowkey touched??

It had always been me, Megan, Paige and Alexis together if we had to form a group. But now I'm kinda replaced, lmao? I do genuinely feel bad for the other girl cause she also doesn't have a lot of close friends in our class, so I'm completely fine if Megan sits with her BUT Megan could've given me a heads up? That's all I'm asking for. Just tell me beforehand so I can be a lame nerd and bring a book with me and not just stare at the table flipping through my empty notebook.

Ok, but thank you so much, Paige and Alexis. (They're upper class btw, kinda surprised and touched?? I've never talked to Alexis before and Paige and I aren't rreeaalllyy close, so I DID NOT expect that.) Although after sitting down, we barely squeaked a word except "which page is she talking about" or "when is the lesson ending". I also only tagged along behind them silently when we walked back down to our classroom. But whatever, I didn't have to sit alone and that's really good already. : )

Sparky x

Ps oof it's Megan's birthday today. Wow, way to go me, getting a little pissed at one of your best friends on her birthday? I'm a terrible person lmao