It drains me

So, as I said before I'm one of the people in charge of a big Christmas event at school. The prep work involves almost all of our cabmates, and some of them... I don't really know that well. Most of them, actually. But, you know, I try my best?

I haven't been doing too bad, actually. (Some say that I've improved, thanks:)) I've been doing my best to be helpful and responsible, but that comes with a ton of communicating and socialising... We rehearsed and filmed with tons of people this week, which means a hell lot of socialising.

Don't get me wrong, I like socialising. I like making new friends. And I think I'm not a weeiirrdd person to become friends with (hopefully). I'm fine with socialising to a certain extent, until I get kind of overwhelmed and grumpy at everything/everyone. (Sorry) So I lock myself behind closed doors and kind of shut myself off from social media for a bit.

Fortunately, I tend to get better after blocking out almost everyone (lol, again, sorry). I'll be set to go again after that, but the cycle repeats. I guess I'm not too comfortable with socialising with new people, but then I don't wanna let the others down, plus I can't not do it, lol. So I kind of have to recharge after using loads of braincells to ensure I'm socialising okay(?? But that's okay, as long as I can recharge, everything will be fine.

Right, I just realised I had homework due this morning.

Sparky x

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