People

People. When I was little, I didn't see people as... people. I didn't see them as humans. It'll make sense in a moment.

These few years, I feel like I've grown a lot mentally(?). I think a lot more than I used to, which is of course, very normal. For example, my parents. When I was little, yes, I knew a lot about them: their likes and dislikes, their parenting style (lol), what they expect from me, etc. But little did I know, I didn't fully know them at the time. Well, I still don't, but I think I know a lot more about them now, as in their personality and their weaknesses. And I kind of realise, at the end of the day, we're all human. We all have our weaknesses. Our personalities can be so so different.

I'll be honest. You know we should never blindly follow and agree to seniors? Well, young me always listened to seniors, whether it's my parents, teachers, aunts and uncles. I had never thought that they could be wrong. Again, I have no idea where I learnt this from, or if it's a part of my personality(?). It was until my early teenage years (that I remember clearly) when my parents started encouraging me to think independently, and to this day, I keep this in mind constantly.

Literature helps as well, I think. I don't know if this sounds weird, but I analyse people in my head. (Is that creepy:( I hope it's not). I'd observe their behaviours (sometimes I can't help but notice their slightest actions or tone) and I'd think of why might they be acting that way. I know it's kind of none of my business but, Idk, I do this unconsciously. (For example, when I was watching a tv show the other day, I noticed the peculiar choice of words spoken by this character, and I began to form loads of pictures and scenarios inside my head. 

Anyways, main point is, I'm starting to understand what people, or humans, are. I feel like I can see a bigger picture now.

Sparky x