lol i wrote this at school (rambling)

hi blog, im currently on a school computer.

honestly im just writing because i have nothing else to do. i didnt bring my earphones to school today, so:/ cant watch shit. imma just write down my random thoughts i had throughout the day. this will probably be very long just because i have so much time.

well, i just gave the principal my withdrawal letter, since yk, ill be going to the uk in september. andd he recognises me! skdjkf this is lowkey a big deal (to me. ok)

my mom's right. i've always been that one kid who you see everywhere. school choir leader, one of the main roles in the school musical, a prefect, in the student association... and i consider myself very lucky. im very very grateful for this... to be able to try out different things. i think ive said something similar in a previous post actually, that ive always been kinda lucky since primary.

i didnt think id achieve any of this is secondary honestly. cause... ok, here's the thing. when i was in primary school, i kept getting the solo lines in choir songs, but every time we performed, i messed up. theyre minor slip ups, like how i couldnt hit that one note, but somehow, id get another solo part again after that. how????

i also constantly, and i mean CONSTANTLY, forget my notes at home, forget to do homework. forget to hand in a signed parent notices, miss important emails or messages. like, it used to happen basically every week (ive improved recently. im trying) but i somehow became a prefect. how???? just because i look like im paying attention in class???? i didnt even have my notes with me in class<//3

ok sudden topic change because i suddenly thought of something else.

talking to online friends on discord vc (in english) has made me much much much more confidence in my spoken english:D since, yk, the UK and stuff. i was really worried before, despite rain (wait i just realised your fake name i gave you is also my online nickname- anyways:D rain told me it's completely normal to have an accent because english isn't my first language, but i still felt anxious and self-conscious about it. i feel much better now, though:] after speaking to native speakers daily, basically. i also got a really really really good score on english speaking:D i got so lucky the teacher who observed our group discussion and gave us scores was kind of a native speaker. the other english teachers make grammar mistakes when they speak. i cant stand it.

another topic change.

i absolutely fucking despise the way they teach english over here. i got such a low score on my english reading and- (im not making excuses because i know for a fact that my english is much better than the score i got) but basically, their questions are SO vague. that one question. they asked us: what is "something something"? it was a phrase describing france, right. well, i knew it was referring to france, but MOST OF THE TIME, they would phrase it like: what does "something something" refer to? BUT THIS ONE TIME, they decided, nuh uh, we're gonna ask them w h a t that is. so i thought, oh, they're asking us what the phrase meant, so i explained the phrase. turned out, the answer was FUCKING FRANCE.

basically, analysis = wrong. you can only answer in the most simple, surface way. if you do ANY analysis, BIG CROSS.

oh wow the bell rang. better get going! this was way shorter than i thought:0

(not signing bc i dont wanna expose myself at school)