Trust

I trust people too easily. It's not about the first time I meet someone, but even if that person has proven me wrong over and over, I'll still give them chances if they say sorry, if they say they're willing to change.

Primary school love interest. He hurt me 4 times. I gave him one chance after another, and to this day, I still feel bad for saying "nevermind" to his apology without an emojicon when he had alcohol and called me. This isn't a very significant example, because we all know how these dumb 11-year-old "relationships" end. I guess this is on me being too... I don't even know how to describe people.

There's this girl in secondary. I hated her guts. Basically, she's a bitch. Almost every single negative personality trait can be applied to her. Self-centred? Yes. Free-rider? Yes. Attention seeker? Yes. Shows off? Yes. Arrogant? Yes. Hurt me in some way? Yes. But there's this one time, when she helped me. I was stuck with computer.. technical stuff, basically, and she asked if I was alright when all the others were messing around. (There's a lot of context but I don't have the energy to type it all out) Basically, she helped me while most of the others did not. "Helped me", as in asked if I was doing okay. That's ALL it took for me to stop hating her. Really? Why? Why do I not hate her anymore?

Sparky x

(Side note: I stopped telling my friends when I post on here because the posts mostly negative these days