Climbing

You know the feeling when you're rock climbing, and you're climbing up step by step; you taste a hint of triumph, success, in every step you take, yet when you look below, the drop... makes you heart drop.

This is precisely what I feel like right now.

It's been oh so long since I've found something I'm relatively good at. In the past few months, I've gotten As; I've gotten so close to A*s ; I've gotten compliments from teachers; I've been referred to as one of the "star pupils"; I've gotten a certificate for performing well in a subject...

I've never had these since I was... 10? I mean, sure, my grades have always been relatively good, but I had never been even close to the top bunch. Not until recently.

With every hint of triumph I taste, the heavier my footsteps start to become.

Mocks are coming up. They're in 2 days actually...

Just gotta *not* look below me:D

Sparky x

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